oh my geeee!!!!!!!!!

and guess what???
mr. N is still alive -_________________-"

dalam kelam kabut
simpang siur
kekalutan hidup aku yang masih tunggang langgang ni
tiba-tiba dia muncul lagi (macam tora datang lagi la pulak :P ha3)

tak tau nak respond macamana
tapi rasa macam nak end of this war
(sebenarnya aku jugak yang create 'war' tu :p ha3)

bagi je lah can
asyik aku je yang carik gaduh
tapi takpe
tengok la dulu macamana

kalau nasib dia baik
ada la can dia nak masuk
dalam carta 'friend-list' aku
tapi macam aku cakap tadi
tengok la dulu macamana
dia punya prestasi
(kah3 ? )

kaluutt.. aku banyak masalah negara tahun ni.. tak larat nak bergaduh dengan sapa-sapa.. hu3...

muahahaaa

aku kenal kau dah cukup lama..
cukup lama sampai boleh baca semua tindak tanduk kau..
boleh ramal apa kau akan buat dalam situasi2 tertentu...

sekarang aku nak gelak sebab
memang apa yang aku assume
memang kau buat
hahahhaaa


tapi
aku kecewa dengan kau
sebab apa yang aku expect  buat
kau MEMANG buat..




on top of that
aku kesal sebab
walaupun aku tau aku bodoh
aku masih mengharap
shoot me!!!

xde tajuk lg =b

uploaded this 

in FB last night...

it's a true story actually... have to consider again either to publish here..or FB..but..errr...

don't have the strength to publish it in FB since it's a true story... n maybe the other person might see it.. we're in a BIG fight... really BIG that it takes almost 2 years and still counting -_-"

my best friend told me that it's not worth it.. but being me.. that stubborn girl who won't listen to anybody until she get hurts BADLY -_-" yeahhh...my bad!!

sapa lagi makhluk yang boleh bikin gua panas

telefon juz nk tny..
"da mkn ke belom?"
"sehat ke?"
"da makan nasik ke ari ni?"
"bila nak balik kampung?"
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sooo childish!


AND I REALLY MEAN IT!!!






tolong ingat ye.. saya bukan budak darjah 2 yang dulu tu lagi.. begitu senang nak digula-gulakan.. kau ilang dalam idop aku setengah taun, lepas tu muncul nak tanya soalan-soalan macam tu.. memang kena la.
" sorry.. saya tengah busy.. babaii" .... padahall.. baru tengah bersiap-siap je =b please grow up la man... kau bukan nak ngorat budak umur 17 taun pon... mak cik  si gojes (hahhaa) umo DUA PULUH TUJUH TAHUN kotttt....  tukar la strategi tu sikit.. ciitt!!!!!!!!!!

dream

i was the person who believes in dreams ( sometimes still believes it -_-" ) most of the time i decide based on my dreams..but usually i'll look at the time that i woke up..if it's in the tahajjud time + i'd take my wudhu' before going to bed, i'll believe 90% of the dreams (see...that's a STRICT restriction to believe a dream =b hahahhaa)... if dreaming during nap time, it'll considered as mainan syaitan =b ngeh3...

i hang on my first crush because i dreamt of him meeting my parents and grandpa.. yup..he did manage to meet my parents in the real life, but not yet to see my granpa.. i still believe that he is the one that will be my husband although he rejected me (i confessed after he waits for 5 years  -_-" n i confessed because forced by my friend... u might think that i'm not sincere..but...please.. i'm not brave enough to tell the person that i like about my feelings..(up to this moment, still don't have the gut -__-" ).. i placed my hope on a tiny piece of string called dream until................................ i saw a girl's pic in his fb..at that time, my heart cracks, but still the tiny 'string' is holding me... and 1 day, i have to face the truth when he called me inviting for his wedding.. n now, he lives happily with his family... (but the big, bad evil inside me is still hoping -_-" bad..badd... i know... huhuhuu )

and what make me keeps nagging this early in the morning (currently 5.35 AM and start writing around 5.15 AM =b) ?





i dreamt of him  (again) and this time it's so real that i don't want to wake up... huhuhuu... it's difficult when u r a stubborn philophobia.. n he being himself is so full of egoistic who constantly testing me.. when he speaks, it'll only lights the anger in me -_-"

i hate him for sure..but deep inside me.. yes... i have to say this in my dear diary, I LOVE HIM.. but the stubborn philophobia inside me of course won't tell him the truth... how maaaaa?????? -__-"
o Allah..please, i'm the tiny creation of all your creation, please guide me... beside the tiny 'string' , i have you.. the strong force that make everything happens... show me the way... amin...